Thursday, August 24, 2006
shit..
Fuck..i seriously got to mature soon..before i hurt her any futher. shit la.why didnt i figure that out? but..but..i didnt know..i mean its like..i didnt treat her coldly. the times was cux i was stressed and all and i didnt know what to say to her. tell her i am stressed and worry her even more? shit sia..i really got to be more mature..someday, somehow..but..how...?
Firstly, she is older than me. gals are already more mature then guys in terms of maturity. Secondly, i am freaking lame..thanks damien.fcuk.
to be a good boyfriend to her. just what must i do? besides the basics of treating her well and being by her side all the time, especially in her times of need, NOT TREATING HER COLDY(first thing to change).but..on the phone, my mind always blanks out. cus..erm..i get excited when we talk on the phone..? it justs blanks out.how to let her know?once again, WITHOUT hurting her, that is.. why the heck did i even take up so much stuff? thanks to all that, i end up "neglecting" her, although negelct hardly does my sins any justice.
the worst thing is,her b'dae on 4 sept, monday.first day of hols. b4 that, OBS!!!how to get her present?shit sia. money..try to get. time, where to find? sincerity?in my heart. haix
Stupid council.take up most of my time.wont complain bout bb.its like, my second darling? council.bloody dhp. arrow me to come up with plans for board in 2 weeks. 2 fucking weeks ofr one years plans? fuck you la.you so smart, you go do yourself la.makings of a leader 101: never make your ppl do something you yourself cannot do. thats how a leader gains the respect of his men.BB.wing commanders. give them a cm, they ask for an inch. over take theie dy csm and their bsm? hey,there is a thing called hierachy.FOLLOW IT.bloody hell.TBS.dunch think that you are csm means that you can dao ppl.your dy and bsm.council meetings. dun even listen to us.wing commanders interrupt, you listen to them.forget it.the both of us will NEVER come for any meeings no more.what the use?since only the wing commanders are talking, let them run the company.i dun give a shit anymore.hansel leong.you fucking backstabber and piece of shit.at least attend ONE parade? not pon all.you are a SQUAD SERGEANT for a reason.its not for you to show off that you have a pos in your cca you gay shit.dunch even come for council meeting.the onli time you came was when we were re-allocating squads. why?you wanted to choose the ppl you liked.the whole council knows you like abiel and lust for brendon and barney.fuck you la.CHRISTIAN org know.HOMOSEXUALITY NOT ALLOWED. BY ORDER-GOD.in the bible? and you are thje welfare squad sgt somemore.ya.look after the ppl in your sleeping bag right.fuck you la.
not good..baq to scolding.you know, i seriously think that my blog is just a place where i pour everyting out?tts good cus no one has to listen to me.haha.but..electricity bill go sky high.oppx.haha
[[tired and stressed fat boy]]
-microsoft sam?go eat strepsils.good for the throat.or you want wd-40?haha.
I went off at
11:47 PM
