Monday, December 04, 2006
today....
today kinda slack ba..GV GOLD CLASS SO ROX..seats damn nice, food and screen too. like first class in airplane like that. just that the "in flight" movie screens are bigger, cannot choose other movies and that there is not turbulence with ppl throwing up behind you and ppl snoring and stuff.haha. happy feet was the first movie.touching. ok. i admit. 1/4 of the time i was focusing on the nachos and three dips infront of me. the seats recline and can control with electronic control somemore la. so cool.haha.sound like just come down from mountain liddat. haha.was at vivo. then went on to tm for open season. it was retarded like shit liddat la. the worse thing. cannot msg much. onli to guys.what the.as she said. parents want me to turn gay or something? well..if they want descendants, i cant be gay can i? i know that technology these days quite advance la, but even IVF(in vitro refertilization) also cant be done in guys right?even if it can, how he give birth? through the asshole ah..haha.jkjk.todae. ups and downs. still recovering from a ton of things. emotional and camp lag.sigh.when can i ever recover..sigh.thoughts and stuff. layers of my mask. too many to be peeled by many?thats so sad. seems can hide. or am i already deceiving even myself?sigh.during QT.read a few things. how can i tell anyone expect turn to God and confide in him? telling others. ppl will say i crazy. take these verses so seriously for what. but.they dont experience what i do now. they will NEVER. Personal relationships with God is not one that can be penned down, nor painted.sigh. love. it overcomes all. that really stands? for me. am i really what she says? i think so. not the positive side. when one is tired and stressed, ones true colours come out. were that her true colours and feelings towards me? if they are. is it really worth all that we went through? [darling.of you read this, dont feel anything oki?its jus a thought]
love's definition in the bible. think it really applies :
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.
-1 Corinthians 13:4sigh.dunno what else to write about le. sleepy. with the camps and SGB coming up, will i be able to keep her happy and by my side still? without hurting her like i just did? i guess it takes 2 hands to clap. right?
[*tired.hurt.confused.stressed.boy*]
I went off at
11:45 PM
