Saturday, January 12, 2008
only love can say..try again or walk away..
been thinking..am i really worthy of her? is there another one in her heart? 27dec2005. the day it ended. you told me you were not ready.i waited till i was led astray..i even was dumb enuf to tell you that i was going after another gal.and you knew her. i was waiting for you..you even told me that you were not ready.when i confessed?you told me you didnt know what to say.what was i suppposed to do? you told me not to be emo.how can i? sure, its been a while. you were cold.you even daoed me.till i called you.on the day you killed me, you rejected my call.expected. i took it as a sign to back off.then you msgde me felt over the moon.you know how happy i am whenever i see your name on my phone? now i dare not confess to you again.would i be hurt again? i think of you all the time. i love you. do you? i know i've hurt you.you've hurt me. i dont really care.i just wanna be with you.to see you happy.
you can kill me for all i care. all i wanna see is your smile. the one that melted my heart. the words that calm me and the voice that remind why i live. i am willing to sacrifice all for you. you may not return my love. i;m willing to give it to you still.loving someone does not mean 2-way.to see you happy is my joy. when you feel sad and pain, how i wish i was the one taking it from you. seeing you complain hurts me, to see you suffer. you may take long to reply.i dont care.cus forever is a long time and a good thing and person is worth the wait.
i was foolish enough to ignore the fact that the girl for me was in front of me yet i over looked her, taking adive on love from her.the pain i caused you. i can feel it.i'm totally sorry. i got impatient. now i've changed.i'll wait for you.no matter how long. you've killed me for other gals. now i'm stretching out my hand for you to save me from drowning in the sea of despair and lonliness.
baby you know who you are. ive been her.always was and always will be,there for you.call me anytime when you;re in need.i'll fly down. i'll protect you at all costs. i'd rather take the pain for you then see you suffer even the slightest pain causes an amplified pain in my heart.
i love you.i want you.to hold you in my arms,keeping you safe and warm watching over you all your life, to have and to hold, through sickness and health, thorugh poverty or richness,till death till us part.
I went off at
2:57 AM
