Wednesday, February 27, 2008
sigh.phone spoilt..AGAIN!!!!! sigh.camp coming up somemore..how? sigh.in camp..hard to talk to her leh..3 days!!i mean..she aint really mine but..sigh.it hurts when i cant talk to her..though i dunno what to talk to her about, i just whip up something to talk to her about..i mean.sound retarded but hey.aint that me? well..a phone is just something that allows me to communicate with ppl..and even if i have the best phone? it aint worth nothing if you cant talk to he one that you love the most right? oh wells.
i think theres something wrong with me man..its like..self contradictory like that..though i wanna talk to her late into the night? i know she has school the next day. yea sure. i'd love to talk to her late but yet i want her to sleep..how? wanna talk to her but yet at the same time i want her to sleep.sigh.i'm repeating myself over and over again. whats wrong with me? smitten. Os. wishful thinking on my part? i mean. yea sure i confessed to her about how i feel..the whole worold know how i feel about her...twice i told her how i felt, twice i got hurt or was lost..entered the cold war twice.hurts man..i dare say this. i treat her like she is mine..but yet at the same time i know that she is not mine. what can i do? as much as i want her, i dont know if she wants to be mine.. what can i do to find out? as long as she is happy, hey.i am too.sure.it'll hurt a heck lot but.seeing her happy.yea.thats good enough for me..sigh. hope you dun see this pam..
sigh.lost, confused and out in the cold.
I went off at
11:42 PM
