Saturday, March 08, 2008
oh wells..nothing much happened today..dens at camp..kinda miss her though..not used to the quietness around in the house..ah wells. phones quiet..dunno what happened,.suddenly never reply..not that i'm not used to it..
she has camp tomorro till monday.wont be messaging her in that time..but one thing for sure..i'll be thinking of her.
i;m bored..to the core.nothing to do.wanna sleep but cant sleep. wanna do something but nothing to do..sigh.got the urge to try and call her again but she got camp tomorro and i dun wanna get disappointed again..sigh.
i;m getting emo..dunno why. just wanna shut up and let the world go past.take every step cus its necessary. i just feel like something left me. a HUGE hole in me. is it the ppl i hang out with? is it the things i have experienced? is it my past experiences? was it the things i have done? is it the things i have yet to do?is it the things that have happened? is it the things that i fear? is it the self confidence that i have lost? all these questions add up and i feel like i'm spiralling deeper and deeper into despair. the mask i managed to take off is coming back once again.and i am not exactly happy about that. whats happening? money is a concern for me. parents arnt exactly doing that well. i dun wanna be a burden to them. i just wanna stay out and not add to the cost of their living. i just wanna lighten them of the load. i;m gonna get a better paying job. live off myself. but.who is gonna hire me? poly starting soon. sigh.
i just wanna sit in a corner and just let the world go round and on.quietly.
I went off at
12:51 AM
