well well..todae.stuff like super lotsa bears can.then went to buy ljs.the gurl.bao ling.really bao can.she KAWAAII!!!!then after that she key in wrong then had to go baq to get my order.then the irony was that she said see you again.hahaha.the look on her face was like flustered can.poor her.then went baq to shop and saw this gurl.make up heavier than the crane's counter weight can.but when she smile.sia la.she super chio.her dimples and stuff.sia.chio.but make up super heavy.hahaha.
the cartoon i watched todae.."and in the other corner in the round ring..."lol.corner in the round ring.so now got corner in circles la.haha.oh wells.then like todae.we were super bored.but after that.towards the end of the day, sudden influx of ppl can.whoa.can die.run up and down.hahaha.oh wells.then after that obasan and her boyfriend sent me to bedok there.nice ppl.whoa.her bf..speed demon sia.he super good.then he said that whoa.after seeing the drifting ah..i also wanna drift can.whoa.if he did that ah, i call him boss sia.then adel was like..AAAHHH! hahaha.

ohohoh.and i got news from the "MOH" that SPAM is now safe to eat.for me onli la.heehee.

no one knows what i'm feeling now.i'm bleeding on the inside.i'm crying badly. i'm torn.i'm bleeding more than i have.this mask i wear.how much more battering can it take? sure.weather the storms of life.i intended to do it with you.not on my own! i'm confused. are you leading me on?are you telling me to take the move? are you opening up to me? like before? can we ever get back to what we were?can we? i'm like in a glass box.i can see you.but i cant touch you.you're there.i'm shouting till my voice is no longer there. and you dont even hear the slightest whimper.i can see you cry.i wanna wipe your tears and give you my shoulder to lean on.i want to comfort you.i really do. i know what i did was really wrong.thrice have i hurt you.i wont say how was i to know that that would hurt you. from what i hear.you are hurting too.yea sure.i said we're friends.i wont hurt.you think i can not hurt? i have kept my feelings at bay.i hinted to you.you led me on.or were you? it hurts like shit.what can i say?what can i do? all i can do is stand and watch.i dont want to hurt you.what can i say, or do, to let you know i'm sorry?i really dont want to hurt you again.the mask i put on.i really cant take it anymore.i cant wear it for much longer.its breaking and falling apart.i'm trying real hard to keep it in place but.you are just pulling it off.

where do i start. 2 days ago. there were these group of girls.nth much.then got this girl come. man.she is SUPER cute.her eyes..can kill.her body.can burn.her voice.can make the deaf listen.and she actually smiled.man.i can tell you.i would have gotten her number if her sister was not there.man..then got OJT ppl come.whoa.this girl.super cute.bubbly too.but she older than me.sigh.so yea.nice to talk to.NOT FLIRT, mind you ppl who always thinks i flirt.comeon man. then ya lo.just talk and stuff.played too =)

then todae.got this girl that looked so much like samantha that i actually thought that it was her can..then after that.she left.cus she didnt like the job.oh wells.nothing much happened.

once again.i am maria.have a mam,sir,and o ba san. =)

looking in the skies, i'm reminded of your beautiful smile that made me know what love is once again.i know what i;ve done wrong.for real.what must i do to even get you to look in my direction?thats all i ask for.

one little quickie.
went for work.worked till forgot to makan.then got early off the next day to make up for it.but i extended shift and was till full.worked all the way.never got the half hour baq =) dun mind it =) oh wells.stuff bears.got one aunty.go make so much troub.make me stuff so much.but never mind.she bought like.400 plus worth of stuff =) then got this pair of cute gals come in.RV one.they smile got like.500 degress of fire go through can.i was like blushing half the time. they so cute.the birth cert they put their speacial name as chio bus at first.then bu.cus bus is the one on the roads.then after that a grp of gals came in.do bear.for freind.then record msg. no frens.ask tem to confrence then record lo..hahaha.then made the bear.got one damn cute gal.kept looking and talking to her.fine.flirt. then think my manager saw and pulled me to sai kang. sigh.wasted can. oh wells.

then while surfing.saw this pic of HER.sigh.i wanna talk to her again.but.whenever i tried, i get tongue tied.LITERALLY.sigh.i've done what i've done. all i'm seeking is for you to just talk to me.acknoldegement is all i ask for. your love is a bonus.sigh.everything i see and hear.are they just hallucinations? all i pray is for this heart to be unbroken but without you all this heart is going to be is incomplete..

Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat

So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true

They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart

Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend

Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing

After some time Ive finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
Im searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And Im sorry bout the things Ive done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didnt search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But shes crying while shes saying this

Against the wind Im going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than
Friends

Still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didnt search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But shes cried while shes saying this

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said

i'm not pretending i'm sorry,
if you think that i am, i have nothing else to say.
i cant imagine life without your love
and whenever i'm with you, forever is not enough.

when i met you, i gave you my all
when you left, you left me not only in the cold
but also alone and with my heart in millions.
i tried searching for it
when i found it and offered it to you,
you took it and scattered it around the entire earth and heaven
but still, you got me drowning in your love
and i can feel my heart beating,though its broken

but the day you left abruptly and coldly
you left me with strangers around me
like a child who lost his mom in a sea of people.
you're everything that i need.you're everything i need.
baby.will you come back to me?
put your hand in mine.i promise that i'll keep you safe no matter what.
first i'll need your hand, then forever can begin.
Will you?

Funny when you stop and think,
Time goes faster than you blink,
Nothings ever like it was,
You are the happiness it brings,
Is more than enough,
I know its hard to believe,
Your still the biggest part of me,
All I’m living for

I still think about you,
I still dream about you,
I still want you and need you by my side,
I’m still mad about you,
All I ever wanted was you,
Your still the one, your still the one,

Its hard to breathe when were apart,
You’re that sunshine in my heart,
I keep you here inside,
You’ve been everything to me,
You’ve been and always will be,
And I know it’s hard to believe,
Your still the biggest part of me,
All I’m living for.


If you love me, look into my eyes and say you do,
I’ve been waiting all my life for someone just like you,
Baby after all we’ve been through,
Girl I’m still in love with you,
And I want you to know, I love you.

ever called some on 38 times only to have the person answer on the 39th? first time for everything eh..oh wells.still haven recover from major lack of sleep.sigh.forgot bb week card.must go down skool.sian. no money..no sleep.no er.dunno what also.

yesterday. went to work too early.hahaha.supposed to go at like 4.went at 11.ahaha.then tot end at 7.finish at 5 instead..oh wells.then went to watch the musical the calling in barker. nice man.remind me of high school musical.then went to makan.met calida.makan..forced to eat a prata can.sigh.FORCED being the key word here..then went home. she found out tha tmilo was made from chocolate.well.she got 5000 points for that.

needed to be in school to open admin room at like 830.guess what time i woke up todae? 9. chiong cab down.my wallet going to cry la.

today.enrolement.sian la. go le then parade lo.drill drill drill drill.rain.sticky polo tee.eeeee. then go service.got long service medal.5 years of service just to get one metal.melt down and sell away for what.20 cents? for all the years.brigade recognizes our service with a 20c metal.oh wells.then the makan.WORST in the few years of the enrolment that i went for can.then fall out.go makan waffle town and suppose to take cab home with uriah and matt lin but then saw 67.chiong to bus lo.saved some nice bucks there man.hehehh.then met calida again.TODAE.SHE IS GONNA BE CHARGED WITH TREASON.for hitting the president of a nation of which ALL are a citizen of.PROCRASTINATION.i'll arrest you cal. hope can wake up man.

Sai and i came up with this on the way home.

Country - Saying associated with it
Japan - YAA-TAA! (Hiro Nakamura)
China - WWAAATTAARR! [produced water] (Bruce Lee)
Malaysia - SIA LA! (Your regular Joe drinking teh tarik)
Singapore - AAIIYYAA! (Sound Familiar bros?)

if you think of anything else, do taggie oki? lets keep this one going guys.a litle request from me. can? =D

nothing much happened today though.jsut that i got daoed again by her.not that i'm not used to it.but then again.i dun blame her for not replying.cus the thing is.i know that i hurt her.deep.like i said in all my earlier posts.i know my mistake. it still takes 2 hands to clap right?sigh.as much as i wanna make up for the wrongs that i did..she aint allowing me to.i.ve been serving the ball many times.but if she doesnt hit the ball, there can be no game to play right?sigh. i know what i said was wrong. 3 times. i'll just take it as a sign and just fade away from your wonderful life. bye then..sigh.

went to see small bear todae.got my leg done.my leg gg already. one long one short.sigh.and my bones run from their position. what to do.then went to cut hair.dun wanna talk about it. sigh.then went to meet the guys.waited for kar wei for like.2 odd hours?then went to marina with him, makan.but before that.we had to like wlak around marina square a million times and throught he arcade.also played.decided pool was too ex.then also we thought.if they wanna play again later, out wallets are gonna cry man. then wait for kenny and jag.kena ps by hari.he say got what house stuff to do.aiya.that one youpasal..we dun care la huh? =) then kenny came.took the panadol that he requested.then we waited for jag and sai called.then the 3 of us went to play arcade then we met up with jag.then deicded to watch a movie.3 kingdoms:resurrection of a dragon.not a bad show.though we did not have a idea what the show was about.but still.it was worth my 7.50 =) then while waiting for sai and the show to start, we started camwhoring again.haha. then we kenny and i decided to go buy or rather "smuggle"in BK. hee.did it perfectly. oh wells =) then after the movie we went to decide what to eat.started out at the second level.walked the whole level once, back to square one. then went to yoshi.then,as usual walked around the whole of level one, this time, twice. then ended up at yoshi.AGAIN.they ate while i didnt.budget.dad and mom's finances aint that good.thats one of the reasons why i didnt wanna go poly for just one sem.and thats why i working full time also.ease them up.surviving on your own aint easy.now i understand why the older generation ask us to be prudent in our spending and to reign in them.sigh.not easy man.those born with a silver spoon will never understand. hope can go ns earlier.ease them of this burden.let hte govt take care of me, and use the tax that my parents have been paying.then move on to auzzie.but the bad thing is.i;ll be leaving my friends and loved ones behind.it'll never be the same without them.sigh. its hard.

no one knows the pain in me.i'm crying on the inside.pain rips my heart.the more crazy i act, the deeper the pain is.things aint always the way they seem."My happiness derives from knowing the people I love are happy."

well well..followed my dad to go do some party at one of the uluiest place i went to.the bloody place.some blandford road.the ppl who live there confirm dunno how to cook their food one.haha.the place was like at serangoon. then the names of the streets ah.all sound very ang moh one.dunno why. the place was super nice. the house uber big, but no aircon.the kids were cute though.haha.that was until they started to play with the bubbles, that is. when they started to play, they were more like just throwing the solution around more than making bubbles can..then i was super slimed..one of the boys found fun in sliming others and making bubbles land on other ppls head.dunno why. then to end, i made them shout daddy.they enjoyed it.dunno why.haha.then alot of daddys came.i forgot.MANY daddys were there.haha.then they were hosed down. they like to fall. they dip their legs in the solution and then started SLIDING around.when they fall, they just laugh it off while their dads are like freaking out. haha.then went home, all slimey and stuff.now.my hands are much much rougher than before can?not like it was not rough enough already.haha.then went to makan dinner and home.
now.my dad is hooked on my psp.on some african hunting game. well.at least there is one person less to worry about.on getting scolded or chased at, that is =)

well well.guess i got new career option le..fortune teller.guessed my pes stats right.haha.PES C2L2.hehheh. no need take ippt, then also cannot go outfield.only fit for HQ duties. hahaha.oh wells.the stupid test got like 9 stations. the phsyco test was really physco. the test was like.."hey.whats your highest level of study??okok.any member in your family got any mental illness?dont have?ok good.please go to the counter with this.hve a nice day" and the ppl we called made it sound so serious.like.oh.we will access him mentally to see if he is ready for early enlistment.after the test?i think the saf is. outside look nice.inside like shyte. haha. anyways.then after that.had to go for hearing blood test.i tell you.the syringe ah.the needle is like..half a pencil can. then they poke in is more than a ant bite can..more like pinch.then can feel the blood being drawn out..then put the plaster.blood seeped through it..so you can imagine how big the hole is.then went for some ear test.more like to test hearing.the cubicle i went into.the room looked more like some blast thingy.the door uber thick.like some armour cell. then after that went to ceck eyes.the most retarded thing.he ask if i wear glasses.like..eh.blind ah.haha.then after that went for chest xray.the norm la.then went for dental check.then went for medical. gotta strip off shirt, then put bag, shoe and socks in locker. then go for ecg check.then weight and bpm and blood pressure.the can even tell your percentage and fat mass in your body can..scary. then when see the MO that time i nearly forgot to bring in my medical report can.haha.its that letter that gave me the downgrade man. then went for the computer test.the LONGEST one. i felt like i doing Os again can.the first round was ok.test imagination.i tot that was it. but NOOOOO.it was like uber lot can.then came the physics.then got MATHS!!!OMG.its not those 1+1 KIND.BUT GOT STORY ND STUFF.then i found out why got pencil provided.lol.then got algebra.and fractions and percentage.and proportion and also got sec 3 and 4 math. then got questions to ask you on what we like.and also got number pattern and comparisons. retarded.didnt nuderstand that one though. and also got explanation b4 the questions.the retarded thing is that.the time they gave was near impossible. 15 mins for 30 odd or 25ish questions.no calculator.now i feel cambridge is better than saf.at least also got calculator.andt hey tell us what to study for. all in all? this test was to think which vocaiton to put you in.crazy right? then my dad told me.math is for arty and sniper.logic and reasoning for OCS. another scary thing. when i sign in online, they had ALL MY INFO.FROM ADDRESS DOWN TO WHICH SCHOOL I STUDIED IN AND HOW MANY PASSES I HAVE FOR OS.if thats not scary, they even had my dads records, maybe cus he did ns b4..hmmm.well well.sorta took up the bulk of my day.reported at 830.went out at 1430.then ate at botak jones.the portions super big can...then went home lo.after buying food for dinner. so yea =)

Ns most likely in September.sigh. cant bear to leave _________ behind.*fill in the blanks accordingly =) *

well well.nothing happened todae, exepct aiki. lucky not taking grading sia.see hui jun do the moves i scared also ah.but she got point.get it over and done with.black belt leh.who dun wan? but stress sia.scared cannot do properly.nener mind.i wait for the next one. tomorro go check up. pes c2? pes e2l4? hope so. hahaha.clerk sia. well well. then got enrolement on sat. sian... hard drive gg. NO MORE GRAD NITE PHOTOS..hope my dadas friend can fix it man.if not..i go jump building le..

okok.guess what?got the job at babw =) not bad.SOLD A BEAR TODAE!! hee. oliver was his name.shoo-gy bear was his name.lol.cute.he lives in melbourne!!!hahaha.
well..enlistment in either huly, hune or september. kena medical on thurs. from now on, meeting sai to run, swim, and run.must do,if not.ippt kena till jialat. 4 mths.nvr mind know.later in camp kena cannot makan if no pull ups..hehheh.then i really kena.hahaha. later get pes b or c2 ah..good game. sai and his er.GOOD freind.(lets not get into details yea? ;>)
went to play at mines todae after work. stupid shoe.gave me blister.nvm.now, the back part of the shoe looks like got red paint. lol. its only a monday.

suddenly..i like feel this emptiness in my heart.its sinking in.NS, then i'm gone form singapore. starting anew in auzzie. new ppl, new enviroment. leavin behind most of the ppl i love. sigh.i really dunno what to do.some person on my tag board.has a great point.i wont say why.sigh.i do regret asking her if i stood a chance. sigh. it was really wishful thinking on my part. sigh. Pam? if you ever stumble on this page.i'm sorry.forgive me?but then again.its gonna be my fault if you dont. yea.say what you want. thinking like this is half the battle lost. but then again.being better prepared mentally reduces the blow? sigh. somehow. theres this bad feeling in me. but.what the heck.lets just go with the flow.

*loving this mask i put on*

B R Y A N T
first gulp of polluted air: 13 August 1991
17 and counting
killed
masked
still bleeding
BORED
Putting on a mask that hides my emotions is more than a game
so strange i never would've
wanted till there was you.
cause i have learned that love is beyond
what human can imagine,
the more it clears the more i have to let you go.

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white converse
new pair of oakelys
something that money cant buy
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