Wednesday, April 23, 2008
no one knows what i'm feeling now.i'm bleeding on the inside.i'm crying badly. i'm torn.i'm bleeding more than i have.this mask i wear.how much more battering can it take? sure.weather the storms of life.i intended to do it with you.not on my own! i'm confused. are you leading me on?are you telling me to take the move? are you opening up to me? like before? can we ever get back to what we were?can we? i'm like in a glass box.i can see you.but i cant touch you.you're there.i'm shouting till my voice is no longer there. and you dont even hear the slightest whimper.i can see you cry.i wanna wipe your tears and give you my shoulder to lean on.i want to comfort you.i really do. i know what i did was really wrong.thrice have i hurt you.i wont say how was i to know that that would hurt you. from what i hear.you are hurting too.yea sure.i said we're friends.i wont hurt.you think i can not hurt? i have kept my feelings at bay.i hinted to you.you led me on.or were you? it hurts like shit.what can i say?what can i do? all i can do is stand and watch.i dont want to hurt you.what can i say, or do, to let you know i'm sorry?i really dont want to hurt you again.the mask i put on.i really cant take it anymore.i cant wear it for much longer.its breaking and falling apart.i'm trying real hard to keep it in place but.you are just pulling it off.
I went off at
12:26 AM
