Sunday, January 18, 2009
is there a way to end all this? is this all a game of charades? a grand masquerade parade? lets just stop beating around the bush and get to the point alright?or is this the way things are supposed to be? is age a factor? but i guess its just the person eh. love me, love me not. i am who i am. love me, hate me. i do the things i do not to please anyone. say what you want. if not. go fly a kite alright? its bad enough being in the army at my age. guys my age are chasing skirts all around the place. having a financial freedom that i would not be able to enjoy for a long time to come. seeing all my friends free and doing what they want, when they want is gut wrenching enough. yea sure. i seem fine and all. but am i? temptations all around me. its going to only be a matter of time before i succumb to them either all at once, or one block at a time. stumbling or not. thats a answer only time can give me.
throwing in the towel now wont be an option. in a matter of what.5 months? i'm going to be a one year soldier with another year to go. yea it seems short. thats always the case when you see things with the perception of as the crow flies right? i pray not for a easy life but for strength to go through my life.after all. the life that i am leading is already set right? a life of solace and obliviousness. the American dream of many? but there is one factor that affects it quite a fair bit. money, in all its evil there is this glimmer of its own justice shining in its own way. a necessary evil. cant live without it, cant live with too little of it.
i look up at night when i feel the cool breeze on my skin. talking to the stars, they answered a question of mine. in its time bryant. in its time.
I went off at
10:58 PM
