Friday, August 28, 2009
the sky above, grey and cold
just like you
over and above.
the games you play
the things you say.
whats real or not, i dare not say.
the world we face, the face we place.
the words you say and friendship we gave.
all of which, went into the grave.
whats real or not, you know the best..
i played my part, you put me with the rest.
time thats lost, can never be regained.
"cover up!" they say
we sprint and run. but we're bogged down by the sands of time.
Learn to read between the lines.
there are 2 sides to a line, as there are 2 sides to a story.
What you hear is never always what its meant.
tread lightly and you will not fall.
I just cant take it anymore.
army.
friends.
family.
life.
I just cant take it any more. i want to just want to end it all.
Close my eyes and let the wind take me away.
God.Help me. I'm crying out. but no one hears me.
I can only go on like this for so long.
Its a matter of time before i do what i have been trying to avoid.
Please take me home. I just want to be with you.
away from all this pain and hurt and lone survival.
I went off at
11:28 PM
Monday, August 24, 2009
today.off in lieu. didnt do what i wanted to do.thanks to the ever accurate and ever changing weather report of singapore's weather stations.but one nice thing was that it was a cool 25 this morning. best part? when i went to buy my food. i thought it wont rain. or might hold out till i got home. lo and behold. it poured while i was queuing to get my food. had to go back in the rain. then just lepak the day away. slaps!
I went off at
11:22 PM
Saturday, August 22, 2009
ahh.off days =D got my bike. FINALLY. Specialized hardrock sport. not spelling error =] clocked 130 km so far. haha. but stupid thing is. many injuries too. one was. no. TWO. involved my eh. family jewel. stupid people no eyes to look one i tell you. its a cycling track for crying out loud. and they walk like its their fathers road. left, right left right. cannot brake in time, jam my front brake. and rear. DISC BRAKE. effing efficient. whole bike flew upwards. cue shocked and apologetic pedestrian face. the one i remeber the most. a Indian kid. just ran across the road. jam my brake. the rear of my bike flew.and i mean literally flew up. it reached my head. i flew forward. but thank God the little kiddo was ok. the father was like sorry sorry. was tempted to just Fk him but like.forget it. wont take the pain away. so just went on clutching the eh. ____s. and another was while helping this girl fix her front derailuer. the rear tyre cut my left forearm while i lifted the bike and spun the crank. hurt like shyte. but tahan ah. then she was like. OMG are you ok? like.litereally OMG. cue thankful and guilty face with jealous boyfriend look. yes. they boyfriend was there. tgt with a group of guys trying to jio her.and cue trying to help but dunno what to do yet wanna impress her look and actions. and when i was done she was thank you thank you. just rode off looking garang. reach the end og changi beach, flinch. hahaha. and my presperation on it doesnt make it any better. oh wells. till today the scalp remains.
today. went to meet jag and cycle east coast. while waiting for him. cycled around. helped this ABC girl pick up her hat. she was blading. and she was like. thanks so much. didnt expect it to fly off. and i'm new so i dont know how to brake yet, so embarrasing. i replied no worries.haha.have fun. and rode off. nice accent though. haha. then we cycled east coast and eneded with subway. ohoh. and on my way to ECP there was like this guy racing or rather. trying to race me. fed up. up gear all the way and just voomed past him. then slow down, down gear let him pass and hear him pant. non challantly gear up and cycle past him with the littlest effort. looked back and saw him back away. aleoca vs specialized. not showing off but just to quote my biking buddy " Its like a lancer trying to race and audi!" he was refering to my other buddy's challenge for both quoter and me to a race. on the same strectch of road.
got burnt today =/
I went off at
11:51 PM
