Monday, December 28, 2009
its been a long what. 3 to 4 years, depending on how you look at it? and i still cant bear to put it down. yea sure. i tried waiting. when i tried again. you said no. So i just took it as a sign to move on. The song stuck in my head everytime that I think of you is last christmas. Lord how appropriate it is. Looking at it. I start to think. I think that you were right in saying no. Until today, I still have this fear gripping me when i talk to you. Yet at the same time I feel happy and a warm fuzzy feeling rushes over me.
I'll suddenly smile at my phone like an idiot when i see your name pop up on my screen. my mates look at me and my superiors scold me for not doing my work. But still i try to reply with the fastest time, in a hope that you would reply. Greased up and tired, i still hope for your reply. Just wanna let you know that you are the one that keeps me going. You helped me through BMT and my vocation training.
And I just hope for this simple reply to this not so simple question. Would you help me through life ahead, with your hand in mine?
I went off at
6:58 PM
