Sunday, June 13, 2021
Well hello there. Decided to resus this boy here to get whatever is on my chest once and for all.
So we broke up. Weihong and I. Somewhere in March. Loved her to bits, but she decided to up and go anyway. I tried to change, but according to her, i didnt change fast enoough.
Today is her birthday. Wished her too. She thanked me with the 3 handclasped emojis like she did her retailers. Meh, oh wells. Time to soldier on.
Still seeing her, things that we did together, stuff we bought (or rather, she bought), thoughts of her are crashing in my brain like a tsunami at the moment. Thought i would be over it but it still hurts though.
Career. Went from nursing to sales and now, its most probably back to nursing. Sister Jessica has floated my CV to NTFGH, TTSH and SGH. She told me that ICU, IR and perhaps the ED were places that i could excel in. Sister Yan and Sister Khoo were telling me that I had the potential sooooo. why not then.
bye smith and nephew.
I went off at
7:07 PM
Sunday, January 31, 2010
It hurts just to see you walk past.
It hurts to see you smile in my direction without affection.
It hurts ti know that you're here but not with me.
It hurts even more to know that you are my brother and when I shared my pain, my thoughts and my heart with you,
That you just went around me and went ahead with it. Don't you have our own target already?
You told me how much you cherish your time with her and all. Yea sure I believed you. Then she came around. I told you about how I felt. You even told me that I should go for it and all.
And now? I guess rs hust what I did before. Not with you or around you but with others I guess. Now all I can do is just sit in my little glass box and watch as the 2 of you walk happily into the sunset hand in hand.
I went off at
12:48 AM
Saturday, January 02, 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! =D
wow. A year had just gone by. In the flash of an eye. An entire year. A year of pain, love and lessons. Time to look back, reflect and learn from our mistakes? thats the sad prt. the happy part? 6 MORE MONTHS TO ORD!!! =D
All in all. its been a year of ups and downs but hey. THATS life, ain't it? =)
I went off at
10:47 PM
Monday, December 28, 2009
its been a long what. 3 to 4 years, depending on how you look at it? and i still cant bear to put it down. yea sure. i tried waiting. when i tried again. you said no. So i just took it as a sign to move on. The song stuck in my head everytime that I think of you is last christmas. Lord how appropriate it is. Looking at it. I start to think. I think that you were right in saying no. Until today, I still have this fear gripping me when i talk to you. Yet at the same time I feel happy and a warm fuzzy feeling rushes over me.
I'll suddenly smile at my phone like an idiot when i see your name pop up on my screen. my mates look at me and my superiors scold me for not doing my work. But still i try to reply with the fastest time, in a hope that you would reply. Greased up and tired, i still hope for your reply. Just wanna let you know that you are the one that keeps me going. You helped me through BMT and my vocation training.
And I just hope for this simple reply to this not so simple question. Would you help me through life ahead, with your hand in mine?
I went off at
6:58 PM
Thursday, December 10, 2009
As she walks past, your heart races
it threatens to jump right out of your mouth.
your legs go soft, your hands tremble and start to freeze
your world starts to blur.
suddenly the wind starts to blow and her hair is taken with the wind
you notices that she uses only one hand to keep her crowning glory down.
you wonder "why not the hand she usually uses?"
and then you see why.
her other hand is busy,
busy with another persons. Her guy's.
your heart slows down and you lose your heart
as though it fell into an abyss that was never there.
still. you cant help but notice.
boy is she gorgeous.
after all this;the time, pain and distance
you still see the sparkle in her smile every time the wind gets in her hair.
you notice her from afar.
is that her? The way she does her hair, the way she walks?
and yes. it is.
she drifts in and out of your mind when all is dark and quiet.
places, sights and sounds are somehow associated with her.
it hurts you yet makes you go on, no matter how oxymoronic it may sound.
when you're with the one you like.
like it or not, comparisons are made.
am i the only one getting this feeling of nostalgia?
I went off at
5:19 PM
Sunday, December 06, 2009
BACK FROM THE NORTH! though i didnt say i was even going up. haha.
went to KL for a couple of days. BIGGEST reaps ever.
1x Oakley panel back pack [my christmas wish come through! XD]
1x Oakley biking glove [another wish XD]
1x Oakley biking shorts with tights [ needed to get one. since its cheaper and it oakleys, duh!]
5x shirts
3x pants
2x jeans
many many x food!!!!! =D
gonna hit the sack. too tired to blog and i need to head off to camp in a few. sad eh? =[
I went off at
10:33 PM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Obsessed with a love you cant have,
being with the one you cant be with.
an impregnable glass wall that is erected before you
you can see but cant touch it
shouting till you lose your voice
no one hears as much as a whimper
and all you can do is sit, cry and watch the world go by.
dry your tears, toughen up and wear your mask
face the world with a masqueraded bravado
show them what they want to see
look forward, think about the past and suck in the moment.
let feelings lead you;
and end up hurt?
I went off at
10:10 PM
